Tokyo is a mirror, and every reflection is a ghost.
Moving between high-fashion campaigns and dark alleys guided by a talking Tanuki, a Brazilian model finds himself trapped in a loop of his own making. Is the man mentoring him a stranger, or a version of himself back from a future of grief?
Blending autobiography with fever-dream realism, this story explores the Japanese philosophy of the scarred and the fleeting. It is a journey through earthquakes, imaginary families, and the "Giulianism" of letting the world break you until you are finally free.
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83 Chapters:
A non-linear odyssey spanning twelve years, blurring the lines between the neon reality of Tokyo and the shifting memories of Yokohama.
12 Winters:
The vast abyss between the wide-eyed youth lost in Shibuya and the man who now inhabits his own shadows.
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A haunting immersion where kisses stolen under the Tokyo rain carry the bitter aftertaste of guilt, and the word 'Saudade'.
A Grand Event Is Coming!
Here we have two ultimate champions, masters of their crafts, on the verge of a duel that will decide the past, present, and future. Competing for the title of…
But fair warning: don’t rush. There are still plenty of pages to savor before the inevitable showdown. Keep enjoying the chapters… but if you’re already fed up… just drag your eyes straight to Chapter Fifty-Six…
“Giulianism: the art of doing nothing.” Chapter 16
SOME READER REVIEWS
Eliza Smith
May 15, 2020
Is the author a bit crazy? Maybe. But it’s impossible not to be enchanted by the way he sees the world, blending samurais and folk festivals with this 'Tanuki' character. I’m only holding back that fifth star because the distance hurts a little... Deep down, I just wanted a glimmer of hope that the couple would find their way back to each other.
Beth Jay
October 7, 2024
I enjoyed several parts, but I found the author quite wordy at times. He spends pages upon pages on philosophy, time travel, and praising his ex. Overall, though, it was actually entertaining to watch the writer suffer through the breakup... I wonder, is she the same one from 'My Saint Elizabeth'? I hope so, because the poor guy suffered enough to convince me to buy the book just for the sake of the chaotic entertainment.
Liza S. Ljunberg
March 5, 2048
Every time I reach the 'Rocket Man' chapter, I weep uncontrollably. It’s clear to me that the author wrote an entire book just to process a departure. The Yokohama sequence is brutally beautiful; he built a city of paper and an entire future just to comfort himself over the loss of his beloved. I finished the reading in silence, wondering if that Elizabeth truly existed or if she was simply such a charming and well-crafted character.
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